Please bless my friend! Tell me that she will pull through this hurdle and everything will be fine. This year seems unpleasant!

Many ppl around me have health problems. First is my auntie, now is my friend. Its just less than half a year gone, and so many things has happened. I hope nothing else bad is coming up. I'm not a true God believer but I want to pray for her. God, please bless her. Give her all the ability and courage to conquer this illness! Bless her and her family and provide them all the comfort and support from these pains!
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I guess nobody will be here to read this post. Probably this would be better.

I haven't been letting out my emotions for a very long time. I have become someone who doesn't want to speak out, doesn't want ppl's care and concern, just want to be alone. Practically, I am a loner now! It fears me to rely too much on friends anymore cos I am afraid of disappointments yet again. Now, I rarely receive random messages from friends asking how are you etc. Sometimes, my phone doesn't even ring for the whole day. Its actually mostly my fault. I think I don't even bother to text or call my friends now. Why have I become like this? When I hang out with friends, I pretend to be happy, but it isn't so. Everyday, there are so many things bothering me. Probably is me who can't let go all these things. Its probably time to change my mindset. I need to get back to how I used to be. But can I return back to last time? Things have changed. My thoughts and feelings have also changed. Probably I need to find another goal for life so that I could stand up once again. But what would it be? I seriously do not know. Have never got so aimless. Last time, at least I could aim to study hard and get good grades. But what about now? I hope to go back to school actually. But it seem difficult, with the results I have. Go overseas to study? I don't have the money. Stay in Singapore, I can't even get into local university. Study what shit! Life has totally become meaningless. Want to excel in music? I can't even play well. I don't even have the talent. Hope to get achievements from my job? I am jobless now. And morever, without a degree, you can't find any sense of achievement from your job. You don't even get any recognition. Pardon me for this. I totally hate working with ppl from "C, M and I". They totally CMI. But how come they actually get more recognition than us? Ok, If they are good, I have nothing to say. But they are lousy, useless. What has this place become? Read more!

Birthday over for a week already.
I am officially 20!
Special thanks to great friends n family whom helped celebrated my birthday!
Promise photos to be updated soon.

Thanks to:

2030. Received their present the first. Jolie especially, for the nice decorated card. I totally love it! MUACKS!

My family n relatives. they gathered to help me celebrate my birthday.

Shiyng n ru for helping me celebrate it on the exact day! love u girls! 12 years of friendship or even more, and still going strong! Really thankful to have the both of u. Although now we dont meet often, but always feel as close as ever! =)

Sean for spending time to talk to me over skype during dat day, although I know u were busy preparing for your papers. Of cos not forgetting that present that took a long plane journey to singapore. I think the shipping is expensive!

Lastly, everyone who wished me happy birthday! =D

I made 3 birthday wishes this year. will they come true?

Anyway, I've started working already, if some of u still doesnt know. Work is good so far but pretty tiring. Motivation are pay days and weekends n public holidays! =)) Read more!

DIPLOMA AWARDED!! =D I'm finally a graduate from SP.

Well, I was expecting A for LabManagement and Advanced Organic Chem. But ended up getting B+. But something makes me real proud! I finally gotten my FIRST distinction. I also never expect to get B+ for ICP. This is totally miracle. haha.

Although cumulative gpa kinda lousy, but I'm so happy to finally complete my diploma. Not sure if I could get into NTU with this result.. But anyhow, get a job first! I'm job hunting now. Went to Wyeth for interview ytd but I didn't quite like the position they offered me. And Tuas is damn far. But I think I must remain flexible as most MNC or famous companies are all at that area. Wish me gd luck ok? I just applied for Abbott and I hope they will shortlist me for the interview.. =)

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Attended my 2nd driving lesson today.. It is fun. So far, I pretty enjoy. But den, my legs are tired. Next lesson will be coming tuesday! =D Read more!

Currently at Singapore General Hospital, waiting for my mum to finish her eye operation. gosh, I'm here for almost 3 hours. Really bored. so luckily I brought my laptop here!

Oh! This is like my 3rd week of holiday. Have started sending out resumes to apply for jobs. But so far, no news. So sad. Must get a job soon or I will be too bored and super broke. I havent been doing much catching up with friends, except for melissa, fiona, serena and friends. The rest are either in university or working. So when I'm free on weekdays, they are not!

Anyway, I am starting driving lesson on wed.. Very excited! Hope to get my licence soon. den i could drive my godmum's car.. OOPPS!

My New Zealand cousin, Dan, is coming to Singapore for holiday this year end. He will be here for close to 2 months. So I will try to entertain him during this period. I seriously dunno where to bring him to as I myself cant appreciate Singapore attractions much. I guess compared to Auckland, Singapore is rather small and anyone can finish exploring the whole of it in like 2 weeks! It will be a hard time planning for plenty of activities for him. Anyone organising chalet or bbq during year-end, pls tell me! den i can bring him there.. HAHAHA.

Will be uploading some photos soon on my outings with some great friends!

I wanna go KBOX again! It is do addictive. I still prefer to hear my singing than melissa's. The past two times I went out with her, she sang non-stop. And I really mean, non-stop. She could sing for the whole day, without even feeling tired or bored. Super high. But it did keep us entertained. Somehow I enjoy it.. LOL! Read more!

In a few weeks time, I will be graduating and moving onto a new kind of life. It is confirmed that I will officially start working as a full-time. I am still not sure which industry to venture in.. Pharmaceutical? Fragrance? Cosmetics? Research? I shall apply everything that I think is relevant, Den see which company is gg to accept me! My aim shall me to learn new things and gain job experiences. I had roleplay interview last week. It was not a real job interview. It is just one of my language module.. haha. Ms Khoo posted this qns, "what will you see yourself in 5 years time?" Hmmm... Maybe I should start thinking abt this harder. But one thing, I know I want to have a gd career by then and a stable relationship. I often receive comments from working adults that time pass very fast once u start working. SO i guess it will be really fast.. haha Read more!